Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Home

When I started my Animal Crossing game, it asked me at some point to name the town I was traveling to. I thought for a moment "Where do I want to be more than other place in the world? Where do I feel happiest?" Oddly, my response to myself was home. But.. you can't name a town home. So instead I went with the place I found the second most happiness in my life, one of the places Mandie and I created. But it led me to think.. what exactly defines home? I think that what I have found with Dawn's family is the closest thing to a home I've had since I was in elementary school. I'm definately happier here than I was at any time at the house with my parents after age 10 or so. This isn't my family.. but it is home to me. The last couple of days I've talked to Dawn more.. when she asks me if I'm busy, I tell people in WoW I'll brb and tell her that I'm not. I've been trying to set my priorities right, giving more time and attention to the people who really deserve it. I hung out with Ross a couple of times and had a ton of fun, hung out with Deb, spent more time talking to Dawn.. I'm having so much financial trouble right now and I'm working a lot but I think that this is the happiest I've been in years. The depression is still here, and I'm having nightmares again.. but in the grand scheme of things.. I'm happier than before. I think this is a good place for me to be right now..