I guess everything has come full circle, with Mandie that is.
I just hope that she doesn't message me out of the blue again...
if she's going to leave then I wish she would stick with that.
it's getting better, I cry less. The other day I felt really good for a while..
It's a start, smiling at all. Not to mention, for almost an hour.
I played monopoly last night and it made me really depressed, I kind of wanted to cry.
I don't know why, and I really did try to hide it.
I wanted to quit, but no one ever lets me quit...
it's like they'd rather I stayed and played it and got horribly depressed and felt miserable than quit, because quitting is bad.
Maybe I'm crazy, but I'd rather quit when I'm getting upset and maintain some level of happiness, but I guess it's really not about me.
It's better that I keep playing so that others can be happy, because my happiness is irrelevant.
I'm just bitter, because people always do that to me. "no, you can't quit, you have to keep playing."