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I've had this recurring thought recently, and I've decided to write it down.
Maybe I was meant to be close to Deb while she is with Josh and he's like this.. because I can see him doing the same things I did. It helps me to see things from the other side, and it also makes me feel a little better about myself. I mean.. I was never as bad as him, thank God.
I talked about Mandie a lot last night, just telling Deb how I felt and stuff like that. I explained Good Michelle/Bad Michelle to her.. though I didn't really tell her that Bad Michelle is Damian.
It sounds weird, and it wouldn't make a lot of sense to most people.
It also makes sense to me, because I've always explained to people that who I trust and don't trust is entirely beyond my control.. that I just feel one way or the other. And sometimes if someone breaks that trust I can never trust them again, even if I want to. I think it has always been Damian making that decision.. the silent protector I've kept around since childhood.