Mandie called me last night, because I had texted her saying that I wanted to talk.
I was surprised, but hearing her voice and talking to her didn't upset me..
I started crying, but it wasn't over her, it was over the fact that I'm going to be living away from my dad again..
I get so mad at him sometimes, but I still love him, and I've still always been with him.

I'm really proud of myself, which isn't a common occurance, because therapy is seeming to help. The more I come to terms with what my mother did to me, the more I am coming to terms with Mandie. I can see how the two are related, and I really think I'm getting better...

I mean, I still care about her and miss her, but it's at a reasonable level right now. Before it was this constant physical pain as well as emotional pain and I was always crying, as though my mother had left me all over again.

I still don't know that I'll be able to talk to her without getting overly attached. Besides, she said she's doing better, so she's probably happier this way.

All bitterness aside, I really do hope that her relationship with Rob and time alone was worth this.. because we'll never be close again. I hope she doesn't end up regretting it, just as I hope I don't end up regretting breaking up with her.
So far, I think it was the right decision.