alone

I tried to deposit my paycheck, but the bank had no electricity for some reason. I tried to go to Target, but I got all nervous being there alone and I didn't know whether I had to ahve khaki shorts or khaki COLORED shorts, so I didn't do that either. I wanted to stop and get boxes to start packing, but then nothing seemed worth doing and I was getting more and more depressed so I just came home, where I'll probably sit around and cry...
Deb isn't answering her phone, she said we might hang out but I guess not.
This just reminds me that no matter how many nights I keep myself surrounded and drown my feelings in pot or alcohol, I'm still alone.