I have had a lot of thoughts that I haven't written down lately...
Today, I had lunch with Shelly.. Last night I told her about all the stuff my mom did to me that she never knew.. I think she felt bad about not knowing about it. I told her I'm just that good at hiding my life and my emotions..
I told her about what happened with Mandie, and I described life after. I told her how I kept trying to contact Mandie but she was always busy with something else, and how she immediately started dating Rob. And Shelly just said how hard that must have been.. and touched my shoulder consolingly. I really felt validated by that, like it's okay that I was so hurt. Like it was normal for me to be hurt, and wrong of her to do that. It was like she totally understood.. I said how I just decided that I'd probably never see her again and she said that at least Mandie could have told me what she wanted, that she couldn't talk to me. That's exactly how I felt, like Mandie could have at least told me that much...
It was really pleasant, talking to Shelly about all that stuff..
I want to talk to her more...