more later

I'm not sober, and I don't know if that makes this easier or harder to write...
I also had a really hard day today emotionally, I thought of a lot of memories and cried almost everytime I got in the car..
I tried calling My dad, and My therapist, but she was on lunch when I Called... I even tried Text messaging mandie..
I wish I could open up emotionally to ross or deborah, and I feel guilty for not being able to..
I want to be able to trust.+