I hate going days without working... it makes me very lonely.
It wouldn't be so bad.. but none of my friends are online. The few that I have.
The more time I spend sitting around... the more I think about her. Bad.

I was telling Deb today about something I enjoyed about hanging out with Mark and Mandie... I felt so loved. It's a very nice and warm feeling.. being around two people who feel for you strongly.

I have to admit it, I had a lot of fun hanging out with them together.

I don't want any more of this..